GRACE CHATTER

It’s Wednesday and you know what that means….Wayback Wednesday oh I mean Remember Wednesday! You know the drill, grab your favorite cup and tea…it’s about to get real. I love writing blogs, it lets me word vomit everything God gives me at any given time. Also, it lets me know I am never alone and God is always merciful.

Ok, you read the title and you thinking what in the world did Tia do now? I know, I know another one hahahahah. I just love how God uses the foolish things I’ve been through as a testimony to WAIT I SAY lol. Anywho you want me to share, what did I do ahead of God? Well don’t judge me because every last one of you reading have done something trying to move ahead of Him.

Ok peeps this…so as many of you may or may not know God is good. Ok foreal foreal, so when I started my walk with the Lord after college I started dating this too religious guy, let’s call him Frank. Frank was someone I dated for geesh about 3 years toxic on and off. Similar to my abusive relationship it minus the physical violence it was more emotional. But again super thankful for every situation because it showed how much God is never like man. *insert shouting* ok so peep it was I believe first quarter of 2015, the Lord gave me a dream. The dream was wild I won’t delve into the bulk of it but I’ll fast forward to the end. So after three portion of the dream of literally driving through a flooded storm the dream switched to Jared’s Jewelry. It was a dream of the guy I was with opening the door to Jared’s and the associate at Jared’s said, chivalry obviously isn’t dead. I have hope on this next generation. Guess what we were doing…looking at rings. So babyyyy I’m like welp guess the Lord is saying this dude was my husband right. Had to be, we’ve glossed over it, had to be my leaders or no one with discernment objected our relationship. It was when y’all getting married talk, I trusted these people so OBVIOUSLY this is confirmation from the Lord.

Guess what I did next, told my momma about the dream, even though as you know in my last blog I was still religious minded and thought she was going to hell cause she was Baptist. Well if you’re reading this and haven’t read last Wednesday’s blog, STOP and go back so you can see how Delulu I was lol. I’m thinking she has to agree, why? Because my church family who I trusted all said so, no one has objected the relationship so why would I expect my mom. NOPEEEE after I told her the dream she said some wise words to me, although at the time I didn’t think so, she said “You sure he is your husband? It could be someone else?” Ummmm Mc’Excuse me! See that’s why I can’t tell you anything, you don’t know nothing. Yes I am sure hahahahahah whew chile! Ever read yall see my mindset. All she said was pray about.

A few months later since it’s solidified that this is it and I never told him the dream this is it. One day we went to the mall and guess what we went to look at rings, but guess where…yall I don’t even want to say it *insert vomit emoji* PADOGA! PADOGA yall the kiosk near the mall entry. The sister store to Kay’s Jewelry. Smh yall and all kept thinking was…maybe the Lord was wrong with the store? I guess he meant PADOGA, let me help God correct the store. We got rings and made payments with hopes to get them out and just getting married after service on Sundays. Especially since this is what they do, right. Just quick after Sunday service and boom married.

Look at me. I had so much faith in this gift that I didn’t even seek God for confirmation. Didn’t seek God for the final say in this situation. Didn’t seek God for counsel. Didn’t seek God at all about it. Just because he gave me a dream does not necessarily mean this is the end all be all. Yes God can give you a vision about someone but could be later on, could be things that will need to take place before hand. God gave me a glimpse of the expected end but only He knows how that would go, right?

This whole situation is what you call, baby Saint without the property structure to cultivate the gift within her. It’s imperative to be in a house who sees the gift and have not only capacity but the maturity to help a young Saint to grow in wisdom and gift. Not having the help or correct discipleship can affect you negatively and alter the trajectory of your path with God.

Following that, had another dream of mean driving a red two door car. Pulling into my parents driveway. Guess what I tried to do, GO TRADE MY FORD IN FOR A CAMERO. Yallllll a clown. I didn’t do it but I wanted every dream that God gave me to happen. I am trying to speed up the process. I am trying to be sure the dream was manifested in the natural without God.

Well as you know…the marriage with the guy didn’t happen. Thank you JESUS *insert shouting emoji* and repented to God for moving outside of his will and regain my focus on him. Seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and THEN all these things will be added. Matthew 6:33

Delight yourself in the Word and He will give you the desires of your heart Psalm 37:4

Me doing this prematurely not only led to heartbreak but frustration, upset with God because of my own self. We don’t know how the vision will come to pass we must still trust in whatever plan/path God has for you. Even if he don’t do it, He is still good. Joseph had a dream about his brothers bowing to him, he didn’t know the path. He spoke about something prematurely not knowing when this would take place.

You want to know what happened? Well the Lord sent my husband again (another blog for another day) almost two months after my April 2017 surrender through deliverance. All while declaring all 2016 and all 2017 I am getting married. As the only single friend around all married people, claiming that I will be married and I’m single is FOOLISH to so many. Anyway the Lord sent my future hubby June 2017. But yall remember the red car I talked about? Well, when my hubby and I conversed prior he had a black charger. Well when we spent the block he had a red challenger. I can’t make this up! And 2018 while dating my hubby, we went to Jared’s one Sunday after church to look at rings. And the Lord brought both the car dream and the Jared’s dream back and what my mom said “You sure that’s your husband? It could be someone else” ahahahah welp! God is funny but reminded me He got this! I just need to chill. August 2018, my hubby proposed.

Thankful that God gives you a glimpse but be patient as God works things out for you! Don’t get anxious like me and start trying to put the pieces together as if God need help, he don’t need you your help in His plan. He just need you to trust that he will take care of your desires. He know what you want and desire, he placed it in you. This further lets me know that no matter what I or anything else tries to intervene, when God has spoken and declared a thing nothing can stand in the way. Isaiah 14:27

That’s your question today, what God gave you in a dream, vision, or in prayer will you be ok if He doesn’t? Will you be upset if God heals you on the other side, if God presents you as His bride when that day comes? Will you be ok with your mansion on the other side? Will He still be good?

Love you! I pray that you draw closer and closer to our Lord God daily through Jesus Christ.